I find it kind of funny, I find it kind of sad

You wont be good enough But I was thereYou’ll be worthless But I loved you the most

Tue, 03 Jan 2012 16:43:24 -0700

You wont be good enough
But I was there
You’ll be worthless
But I loved you the most

Little moments of happinessAre keeping me togetherAfter so many heartbreaksAfter so many...

Wed, 30 Nov 2011 08:07:06 -0700

Little moments of happiness
Are keeping me together
After so many heartbreaks
After so many disappointments
I’ve lost feeling
For people
For myself
Wouldn’t it be easier
Wouldn’t it make the pain go away
I wont know until after it’s done
I’ve even lost feeling
To end my own life

Cigarette smoke hangs in the airNo breezeIt’s not movingLingeringWaitingIt can’t make up...

Tue, 29 Nov 2011 21:19:00 -0700

Cigarette smoke hangs in the air
No breeze
It’s not moving
Lingering
Waiting
It can’t make up it’s mind
Without that wind to push it along
I’m that smoke
Wanting to move on but there is no breeze
Nothing to push me along
Lingering
Waiting
For my wind

‘It isn’t clicking’Late night sexContradicts that‘We’re not right for each other’Two hour...

Wed, 09 Nov 2011 08:00:05 -0700

‘It isn’t clicking’
Late night sex
Contradicts that
‘We’re not right for each other’
Two hour conversations
Say other wise
‘I don’t know’
Sliding my pants down
Seems like you know
‘I don’t want to be with you’
Emotions stirring
I just want you

I just want your arms around meYour head in my neckYour hands intertwined with mineKissing softly...

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 16:01:06 -0700

I just want your arms around me
Your head in my neck
Your hands intertwined with mine
Kissing softly
Assuring I’ll be alright
Knowing you care
I can’t sleep
Without your skin against mine

Here it comes againHeartbreak sets inBack to the dollsPutting feeling backIn my numb corpseHere it...

Tue, 08 Nov 2011 12:57:38 -0700

Here it comes again
Heartbreak sets in
Back to the dolls
Putting feeling back
In my numb corpse
Here it is once more
Sickness sets it
‘I can’t see you’
The words tearing through
My shirt
My skin
My muscles
Here I am at last
Lonelyness sets in
Anymore holes
In this beating chest
And the dolls
Might just
Take this life

Two weeks And you’re gone Asia, so far awayI’m afraidA country keeps us apartWhat will...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 13:08:18 -0600

Two weeks
And you’re gone
Asia, so far away
I’m afraid
A country keeps us apart
What will happen
When it’s an entire world?

Walking on train tracksLooking past the pierWill I ever find home?

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 13:00:29 -0600

Walking on train tracks
Looking past the pier
Will I ever find home?

Finger by fingerHis hands laced with mineI feel his touchI haven’t been felt in ages it...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 12:54:21 -0600

Finger by finger
His hands laced with mine
I feel his touch
I haven’t been felt in ages it seems
His neck nuzzles into mine
Pricklely at first
Strangely comforting
Laying there with him
Felt like a lifetime

inhale.pine. campfire. star lit skies.cold faces. warm toes. the feeling of being...

Sat, 05 Nov 2011 12:48:40 -0600

inhale.
pine. campfire. star lit skies.
cold faces. warm toes. the
feeling of being infinite.
exhale.
you.

Pulling apart your brainLooking through your pastPeeling back your thoughtsDiscovering your deepest...

Sun, 17 Jul 2011 19:47:00 -0600

Pulling apart your brain
Looking through your past
Peeling back your thoughts
Discovering your deepest desires
Ripping open your heart
Destroying your feelings
Breaking your skull
To see what you’re thinking
Opening your chest
To see your heart beating

It’s been weeksMonths maybeWalks to the parkSmokes by the riverI’m forgetting your...

Sat, 16 Jul 2011 14:55:07 -0600

It’s been weeks
Months maybe
Walks to the park
Smokes by the river
I’m forgetting your face
I’m losing your scent
I can’t feel your heartbeat
In my hand
Or my memory

Envying every pair of eyesWanting every inch of skinYou’re my scentMy perfumeHold me...

Tue, 07 Jun 2011 11:52:16 -0600

Envying every pair of eyes
Wanting every inch of skin
You’re my scent
My perfume
Hold me close
Never let me go

Panic sets inObjects turn whiteNo place to hideThis roomThis bedI don’t belong hereI’m...

Thu, 02 Jun 2011 02:02:26 -0600

Panic sets in
Objects turn white
No place to hide
This room
This bed
I don’t belong here
I’m not like them

I’m watching it rise and fallSacred breath escapingThose Godly lips“I need you so much...

Mon, 30 May 2011 18:56:11 -0600

I’m watching it rise and fall
Sacred breath escaping
Those Godly lips
“I need you so much closer”
Words I wish I didn’t feel
Your body resting
After a restless night
Oh how I wish I could be
That breath
Inside
You
Needing it
To survive
I’m watching you rise and fall
Holy skin against
These treasured sheets

I want that rushBack seat nightsSteaming windowsThrow me against the doorPin my arms backGive me...

Mon, 30 May 2011 12:00:51 -0600

I want that rush
Back seat nights
Steaming windows
Throw me against the door
Pin my arms back
Give me those bruises
I want to feel this fuck

These pillsHide the emotionThese handsAren’t shakingThis heartIs barely beating

Mon, 30 May 2011 01:46:37 -0600

These pills
Hide the emotion
These hands
Aren’t shaking
This heart
Is barely beating

Always aloneFeelingsThoughtsAlways aloneRoomsHousesAlways aloneMindsHeartsAlways aloneFuck beingFuck...

Mon, 30 May 2011 01:29:44 -0600

Always alone
Feelings
Thoughts
Always alone
Rooms
Houses
Always alone
Minds
Hearts
Always alone
Fuck being
Fuck acting
I’m better off alone

Sweetheart You compare me to waterBut you’re my fireBurning insideNo one can blow you outWith...

Mon, 09 May 2011 22:19:25 -0600

Sweetheart
You compare me to water
But you’re my fire
Burning inside
No one can blow you out
With that first spark
I couldn’t let go
Your’re my heat
My sun
The flames rise up
I can’t look away
Eyes filled with
Your fire
Let’s burn this town together

I swallow Instantly relievedSliding down my throatAnxiety goneYou, forgotten

Sat, 07 May 2011 10:50:14 -0600

I swallow
Instantly relieved
Sliding down my throat
Anxiety gone
You, forgotten