You wont be good enough
But I was there
You’ll be worthless
But I loved you the most
You wont be good enough
But I was there
You’ll be worthless
But I loved you the most
Little moments of happiness
Are keeping me together
After so many heartbreaks
After so many disappointments
I’ve lost feeling
For people
For myself
Wouldn’t it be easier
Wouldn’t it make the pain go away
I wont know until after it’s done
I’ve even lost feeling
To end my own life
Cigarette smoke hangs in the air
No breeze
It’s not moving
Lingering
Waiting
It can’t make up it’s mind
Without that wind to push it along
I’m that smoke
Wanting to move on but there is no breeze
Nothing to push me along
Lingering
Waiting
For my wind
‘It isn’t clicking’
Late night sex
Contradicts that
‘We’re not right for each other’
Two hour conversations
Say other wise
‘I don’t know’
Sliding my pants down
Seems like you know
‘I don’t want to be with you’
Emotions stirring
I just want you
I just want your arms around me
Your head in my neck
Your hands intertwined with mine
Kissing softly
Assuring I’ll be alright
Knowing you care
I can’t sleep
Without your skin against mine
Here it comes again
Heartbreak sets in
Back to the dolls
Putting feeling back
In my numb corpse
Here it is once more
Sickness sets it
‘I can’t see you’
The words tearing through
My shirt
My skin
My muscles
Here I am at last
Lonelyness sets in
Anymore holes
In this beating chest
And the dolls
Might just
Take this life
Two weeks
And you’re gone
Asia, so far away
I’m afraid
A country keeps us apart
What will happen
When it’s an entire world?
(Source: demonsanddahlias)
Walking on train tracks
Looking past the pier
Will I ever find home?
Finger by finger
His hands laced with mine
I feel his touch
I haven’t been felt in ages it seems
His neck nuzzles into mine
Pricklely at first
Strangely comforting
Laying there with him
Felt like a lifetime
inhale.
pine. campfire. star lit skies.
cold faces. warm toes. the
feeling of being infinite.
exhale.
you.
